I have realized that I think so much more deeply into everything than anyone I know. I absorb every bit of information around me on contact. Whether its peoples behaviors or the operations of a really fucking cool printer I see. My mind is always racing with explanations of certain things that happen. Why people act a certain why, why people REACT a certain way, and most of the time I can figure it out, I can fucking figure out motives of fucked up people just because Ive been in their shoes. Just because Ive had the same thought processes. I can understand dumb middle school bitches because Ive been there and Ive starved for the attention too. I can understand people who will do anything to satisfy others because Ive had that want and need. I can understand when people think everyone/thing is out to get them, because Ive felt that too. I can understand people who pretend to know things, or pretend to like things to impress others, because Ive been there too. This is why I dont bitch, this is why I dont talk shit. Because I get everyones need to pity, everyones heartbreak, everyones selfishness, everyones envy, everyones lack of self respect and everyones fucking need to  be accepted. But being all these different people, constantly changing and learning and changing and learning. Despite this complete step down from sophistication, but at the moment I can only compare it to making a html layout. You type in the code and look at the page, you see what you like and dislike and edit it. In the end your happy. But a few months later you go back and want a change. So you type edit and edit and edit it until your happy. This goes on forever. I feel like I base the things I do and say, or DONT do or say rather on when Ive seen others do it. When youre bitching about something you dont realize its annoying as shit. You realize it once you see someone else do it and you get annoyed, but the only part that counts is if you make that connection. All these thoughts makes me realize that everything IS NOT relative. Our external conditions do not decide anything. Nothing is relative. Its all fucking science, its all about our parents genes and whether or not we're too fucking dimwitted to question everything in our reality. I was cursed with a mind that craves exploration and explanation but cannot explain shit itself through words. I doubt anyone reading this follows it at all. If everyone thought more into everything that is happening around them this world wouldnt be so fucking fucked up. I cant decide if I would rather be dumb as shit and live my life the best I could out of ignorance or if I want to have enough brain power to make everything change. In conclusion, I have been everyone, I can assure you, but no one has ever been me. I am constantly changing, if you knew me 6 months ago dont assume you still do. Dont try to get to know me either, it will get exhausting.