A constant mixture of highs and lows.
Everything I never thought anyone would ever say to me was said.
I am in constant look out to maintain balance.
To show no emotion.
To not allow anyone to read me.
But even in the attempt to maintain, I dont.
And still realize later it wasnt the right choice.
Maybe the realization is less of a "why the fuck did you do that", its still unacceptable.
Over all, after the bullshit and unconsciously convincing myself I didnt care... Im glad tonight happened.
The intensity is equivalent, as well as the fear and uneasiness.



OOOOON A LIGHTER NOTE...
I finally bought my ipod today.
BAWLIN.