I was thinking there could be different reasons why I feel so shitty at times, lack of sleep, lack of sex, lack of nourishment, but I think that thought was just meant to convince myself I didnt "have it bad", as usher would say. I know all of this is because of you. I'm sorry for all this extra bullshit, but you say "this is why I dont do this", but ya know, your actions really can only have this result. EVERYTHING cannot be boiled down to simplicity, there are things that have underlying and need-to-be-explained-thoroughly concepts to understand. "Us" for instance. This is not all me, this is not all my fault, these are not just my outrageous emotions and misunderstood feelings. This is not because I am young and my brain hasnt fully matured. You are wrong, despite the fact you dont need me to THINK your right for you to KNOW youre right, you are wrong. I no longer know if you care for me, or if youve just perfected the art of living life without a purpose and NOT caring for anything. Ive done enough breaking of barriers, I dont have the energy to shatter the new ones. Once again, I'm sorry for the extra bullshit, but I imagine this will be the last of it and you can continue your life without my company, because we both know everyone can become content with being unhappy.

I'd rather us be sleeping in separate beds than back to back in mine.