Im really just numb to this whole deal.
I can keep saying that Im tired of trying, but I dont think anything is going to change any time soon.
There is no... trying or not anymore. We're going no where, and I think we will continue to go no where.
Yeah... it is depressing, so maybe thats why Ive trained myself to not completely care.
I really credit all of this to how easily I can accept disappointment or defeat or... anything not completely preferable.