All I want is to spend all day with you, with no interruptions, cook lunch in our underwear, watch "epic" movies you cant believe I haven't seen, with whiskey and chile ramen, topped off by cuddle time and back rubs. You've made me learn what unconditional is, you're the only one outside of my family I care about unconditionally. I don't fucking care what my or your friends say (so cliche), it doesn't matter what bad shit happens, bad shit can't be avoided when you put your heart into something, ANYTHING! All I want is you. Ive never felt comfortable or even open to the idea of considering someone else in my decisions until there was you, now its just natural and I WANT to. I can't see myself with anyone else now, and I mean, I guess that usually happens but I don't even entertain the idea in my head at all. Its not desirable. I have these time frames based on objects. Like, you're drawing and your pillow, and I look back on to when I received them and think about how much I cared for you then and I totally thought it would be a steady road for me emotionally from then on... then, if that makes sense. But every fucking day I fall harder and harder and get more and more attached, but I'm fine with it, because its exactly where I am happiest and that's where I want to be. I mean, the only time I don't fall asleep holding onto your pillow is when I fall asleep holding on to you. I don't think things will change in a bad way, I only think things can get better, because it has thus far. M#