Met with the dean today, again.
Eh, looking for god rant written by my psychology teacher.
mmm.
Good stuff.

I am so decent.
Just all around good feelings.
Yay happiness!
Its funny how I can explain things when I feel shitty, but when Im good I really dont have much to say.
Yay being at a loss for words! (some of the time).

ive been a thug since birth.
remember.

STOOP KID'S AFRAID TO LEAVE HIS STOOP!

I knew today was going to be bad.
Ive known today was going to be bad.
I really just wish I hadnt looked at a calendar last night and been reminded...
then maybe I wouldnt be reacting until after said date.

This is all a product of things I should regret.
This is all a product of decisions Ive made I think I regret.
But I am a firm believer in things happening to a reason, "firm believer" used very lightly simply because I am horribly inconsistant. Well, less inconsistant more not sure of what I believe.
what an oxymoron.
Thinking back now, I should have delt with it back then. Or maybe I shouldnt have been pressured. No, allowed myself to be pressured.
When I went in that morning I was still thinking I could undo what I was about to do.
Not consciously of course, but I guess thats what it was.
Maybe I just went ahead and did what I did without thinking to keep me from having to make a firm decision.
I didnt want what everyone else wanted.
I wanted what was supposed to happen happen.

I have been horribly anti-social the last couple of days, and I apologize to those who have noticed.
I probably wont turn my phone back on until friday.
Fair warning.

January 19th is going to be horrible.
But Ive decided that I will someday marry my gastrointerologist.
I WILL be mrs. Konikoff.
Mark my words, world, mark my words.

Im going to a gastrointerologist today...
I think I have multiple colds.

When I went to sleep last night every thing on my head hurt.

On a lighter note.
My speakers decided to work today.

I dont have anything significant to say.
I dont think I will for a while.

I am so tired of being human and having feelings.
I had an absolutely fantastic conversation with my mother this morning.
I think things will change.
I think they are changing.
This morning could have been one of two extremes, I am thankful as shit that it went the way it did.
I never got anything out of a good or bad talk with my mom, but now I honestly don't think anything else could make me feel this good. I have never felt this fulfilled. Ever.

As to last night, I should feel good about it. Not too sure if I do.

I really wish my speakers would work all the time and not only when they wanted to...
I am going to have a good day.
This day will be good.
OH
and last night I heard on the radio that december was "drunk and drugged driving month"...
DRUNK AND DRUGGED DRIVING FTW.
cant wait til next year to drink a shitload of alcohol and do a bunch of drugs and celebrate!...
:-|